I’ve had this revalation quite some time ago, but I’m just realzing the full effect lately. I am an idealist, I am alaways daydreaming and I romanticise life. The opposite of what you would call a realist. The plus side is that I’m in tune with my artistic nature and I can channel my creativity and emotions through words and drawings easily; the negative side is that I have really difficult time focusing, and sometimes reality hits like an icy cold bat.

I think for now I’ll go on living like this. I think I’ll see how long I can last in this world this way.

My ability to focus in school is dismal, but on the other hand, people have been moved by what I wrote. To me, knowledge of the mind is far greater than knowledge of “academics”.

Is this way of thinking the root of my problems? … I guess only time will tell.